note: this post has nothing to do with postive, happy things. i’m in a dark place today. I thought about NOT posting this here, to just write it down on some sheet of paper to be tossed or tucked away. you know, the old ‘this isn’t very upbeat and positive so why bother putting it on the blog’ internal debate. but you know what else? If I only write happy go lucky things and product reviews, then I am not representing my true self. yes, yes, there are certain things that i WON’T write about, but this? bah. small potatoes….**
The American Thoracic Society defines Multiple System Organ Failure as: “when more than one organ of the body stops working normally. Since each organ of the body has its own important purpose to keep us well, the more organs that don’t work properly, the less likely it is that a patient will get better from a critical illness. Organs can stop working, or “fail,” for a number of different reasons. Some common reasons that cause more than one organ at a time to fail are serious infections, low blood pressure (called “shock”) and serious injuries (called “trauma”). In general, the chance of a patient dying in the hospital increases each day that organs don’t improve functioning. So, for example, patients with 3 failed organs for more than 3 days are very unlikely to survive.”
It can happen slowly, one organ system at a time, or suddenly, due to trauma or sudden illness. Either way, the outcome is grim. Reminds me of the boiling frog (frog boiling?) story:
If you drop a live frog into a pot of boiling water, he tries frantically to get out of the water before he is cooked to death.
If you drop a live frog into a pot of warm water, he thinks nothing of it. As you slowly turn up the heat, he simply adjusts to the warmer temperature, then thinks nothing of it. Eventually the water reaches a boiling point, and the frog dies (yes, yes, possibly BEFORE the boiling point).
In the second scenario, the frog is put through extremes, but since they happen gradually he simply makes adjustments as to what is acceptable; eventually dies anyway.
Jump. Don’t be the second frog.
As I get older, I am realizing that there are several things (systems, if you will) in life that help me keep my shit together. Family, work, my health, friends, music, and nature to name a few. In the rare occasion that they are all functioning well at the same time (to my standards, at least), all is ‘ok’ in my world. If one or two are out of wack, I notice, but can keep going just like the second frog. If one or more are suddenly not well, then I notice right away and feel like I am the boiling frog.
I am fortunate to be in a place where tragedies are minimal, and am more often in the second frog situation than in the first frog situation. Thing is, I DON’T LIKE IT, and sometimes realize TOO LATE and nearly boil to death. In the past I have tried to simply adapt to the system failures, to decide that it is ‘ok’ that things are going wrong, to become comfortable with the failing system, and to try to continue on without it.
To mix analogies here, I NO LONGER WANT TO BE ‘OK’ WITH THE INCREASING TEMPERATURES! Enough is enough. Please turn down the heat, at least a little, won’t you PLEASE? Stop trying to boil me. Please let my systems function well together, that I might function well.
Of course, I say these things unto myself, for I am in control of my stovetop and my systems. Right?
What about you? Do you think that you function better when all systems are working together, or at least functioning at their peak? How do you hold your shit together? I could use some pointers. Thanks.