tying knots

it is taking every ounce of strength i have not to blow my top. i am pulling at all of my resources and ‘skills’ and have reached the end of my repertoire. i am surprised that i’ve made it this far into the evening without hurting myself or breaking something. well, i did break something. the clip off of the back of my pager for work. so far i haven’t hurt myself, but i can see that little demon hiding in the corner, waiting for me to let my guard down so it can climb onto my back and take control.
but i won’t let it. i refuse to give it control.
i am at the end of my rope. i’m losing my grip. the only thing left for me to do at this point is to start tying knots. maybe they’ll help keep me from slipping off? give me a little reprieve while i regain some strength? all i can to is try, right?
i’ll be over here in my corner, tying knots.

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